Bewitched, bothered and bewildered!

Hey ho

Right here’s the thing it’s day 3 after the referendum and I still feel odd, I know that is not the right word but I have no other word, no-one I love has died, is ill or been hurt, the weather is pretty good for this time of year, the kids are in good form (for a Monday) Strictly Come Dancing starts very soon and I have a vested interest, it is incredibly exciting to have a pal actually in the show!!! I am loving the new Doctor Who with Peter Capaldi and so too is my 10 year old who was unsure as he had bonded with the lovely Matt Smith’s doctor! Does anyone else think Clara Oswald looks a little like Kate Midleton? I thoroughly enjoyed watching the DVD “About Time” with Domhnall Gleeson on Friday night, a movie that many would balk at as another one of Richard Curtis’s quirky english romantic comedies. And everything is almost like it was before. And yet everything, absolutely everything, is not like it was before! I feel so sad, utterly bereft and robbed, you see I was carried along and involved up to my oxters in the huge and positive YES momentum and truly sincerely believed “this was it” Scotland would vote in favour and 3 days on we’d be dealing with this as the reality, but no we’re not. I am not going to write here about the masses of communications since then, the vote rigging accusations, the ugliness in Glasgow the next couple of nights, the resignation of Salmond, the disarray now amongst the 3 amigos from Westminster about the promises they made. Equally I have no doubt that a YES vote would have also left the country in disarray with many no voters feeling as I do now.

If YES had won it would have been incredibly close so the NO camp would be feeling gutted etc and we would still be facing a divided country with a similar amount of people feeling robbed/cheated etc. I imagine there would have been even more trouble on the streets of Glasgow and likely elsewhere. However I am perplexed and sad that when I posted about a personal unhappy moment when I felt the need to call my kid back to change his Scotland top (he didn’t by the way)  someone misunderstood what I wrote and felt that it was anti-Scottish/Glasgow and that I was blaming the NO camp for the ugliness that erupted in Glasgow after the result, which I most definitely wasn’t, it is true these lowlifes were using the no vote as an excuse to display their bigotry and hatred but there are lowlifes on both sides and hatred and bigotry is worldwide. Again my personal experience has been it is very more prevalent in Glasgow and the west coast due to it’s history but that doesn’t make me anti-Glasgow or Scotland!

Since Saturday I have seen some posts with words along the lines of “ok done and dusted, time to shake hands, congratulate the winners, move on together etc…..” and of course for all decent folk who still want the best for Scotland this is the best way to go, however please realise that some of us on the losing side who believed and campaigned passionately will need some time (ok I know that I will, I can’t talk for anyone else but evidence would suggest there are others out there like me?) So I think there needs to be a little bit of kindness and patience shown to us who are not quite ready to tear down our YES signs, put it all away and accept the outcome and gallantly move forward. Clearly many have now become politically engaged and are viewing this as a continuing goal and are even more galvanised on the back of valid outrage at the shenanigans of a biased media and the elite in Westminster. There is some talk that there are quite a few folk regretting their no vote as it looks as if the hasty promises of the Westminster 3 and Gordon Brown etc were just that, hasty promises and it will be in no way straightforward to implement these promises. I get there is a palpable relief amongst many on the NO side but no-one can deny there is a flatness in the air a sense of loss, a sense of “is that it?” “what now?” is it business as usual?!

Personally I foresee that the last minute Westminster promises will falter or at the very least take interminably long to implement and be agreed upon and the folk that were undecided and swung to no on the back of these will be outraged enough next time to grab the opportunity that only being fully Independent can give. However in saying that Scotland is very clearly almost half and half split between those who do and always will want to be part of the UK and those who don’t. So even if at some point down the line YES becomes the reality there will be huge numbers of unhappy folk like I am now. I like to think that an Independent Scotland will relatively quickly prove to be a better, happier, more equal and just society to live and that relations with the rest of the UK will also be so much better that many on the NO side will be won over but one only has to look over to Northern Ireland to see that on both sides there are those that will stick stubbornly to their beliefs and what they hold true come hell or high water.

For me I am going to go along to events that are for folk like me, the aftermath, the “what next?’ the bewildered the “I now regret voting no” ‘the as yet still undecideds!” I believe I will join a party that sees Independence as a most important goal and hopefully this will give me a purpose a positive endeavour. I hope to engage with other YES folk as this will make me smile some, but I hope to engage with many of the still undecideds or soft no’s, maybe even some hard no’s, anyone really who is willing to be a bit open and discuss and debate. On both sides I hope kindness prevails there is no “I told you so” no backlash. We all live in Scotland and love this place and want the best for us all don’t we? We disagree on how to achieve this but the onus is on all of us to stay engaged and informed, to not expect mainstream media to provide all or indeed any of the truth/answers and not have a bias, there is bias everywhere but it is possible to access facts and figures and intelligent educated people sharing what they know without a vested economic elite interest. I am going to try hard not to be a total bore on my social media but I’m not making any promises. I appreciate many voted on either side without ever posting a thing as that is how they played it. I however became so galvanised that I considered it vital to share anything I thought would help inform folk and help them decide and look in the right places for information that was impossible to find in the more biased mainstream places and I am not going to apologise for that as folk can easily unfriend/block etc if they are not interested. I got plenty of feedback that folk were liking my passion and posts and I am happy that some voted YES on the back of me and that is incredibly affirming. I do of course hope that I haven’t alienated any good friends who were voting NO but I don’t believe I have. Instead I’ve had some nice messages just asking am I ok and that they feel for me as they know I was so passionate but I did not step over that line to be intimidating with it!

I was talking with David (the hubby) about how I had never experienced anything akin to this ever as it has been a totally unique thing for me, he spoke about the General Election of 1992 where the Tories got back in and just how utterly devastated the majority in Scotland were and so began this road as Scotland became more and more distanced from Westminster. I have been watching Russell Brand The Trews for sometime and I can’t fault much of what he says on many of the current world situations, he is also very entertaining and I am glad of any light relief! I swear i just hope he doesn’t come to some sticky end as he is gaining traction in a big way as so many of us are so utterly fed up with how our countries are being run and the incredible imbalance that exists.

So yeah time to sign off, I can’t wait to go along to “after the referendum….” this evening in Glasgow with Lesley Riddoch and some other lovely clever folk and let’s just see where this road goes.



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